Time for some changes.

Wow, it's been a while since I properly updated on here. I did update not too long ago but decided to keep that post as a private post, so yearh. Here's why I need a few changes in my life, and why changes are inevitable.

A lot happened in Portugal. I mean a lot. I've learnt quite a few life lessons from that holiday, through not only the mistakes of others but through my own mistakes. I will not go into what happened in Portugal, because what happened in Portugal, stays in Portugal. The only major things I can comment on are that 1. you never really know someone until you have to live with them and 2. family is more important than anything. Yep, I told you a lot happened in Portugal!

Secondly, I find out what University (or if I'll even be attending University) in less than one week.  I am petrified. I'm very worried that I don't get the grades that I need and want, and I can't even think about what I would do if I didn't get into either of my chosen universities. But of course, I have to force myself to prepare for that.
I get my results on the day or my birthday, 18th August, which brings me on to another subject - I will no longer be 18! Ok, it isn't that big of a deal, but being 18 was a big deal for me. And now that that period of my life is over, I'm sorta sad. I liked being 18, it was like, the beginning of the rest of my life. Now, I feel like I've already broken the ice. Does that make sense? I liked the freedom of being 18, the knowledge that I still have years to go. Now I have one year less, haha.

Another thing is that I have aquired a whole new group of friends, somehow. I don't quite know how, but 4/5 groups of my own friends (who didnt previously know each other) have somehow all become one big group. I love it. My social life is the best it has ever been due to it being the summer and the new big group, and I'm having the time of my life. Now, of course there's always a cloud hiding the sunshine, right? Yeah, well, it's just been a whirlwind really and all I know now is that I won't be able to hand out trust as easily as I used to be able to.

OK, final point, before I ramble any more, work is really destroying me at the minute. I am working 55 hours this week, and I am halfway through. Did you know 45 hours is the legal limit unless you've signed an opt-out sheet? (which I have). I may be just a little bit crazy. The worse thing about this 55 hours week is that it's a 7 day stretch too, no days off, no breaks from the extremely long and demanding days. Ah well, I have to think about the money, don't I? Only problem is, I've always told myself that money doesn't matter that much, so it's hard to convince myself to keep going and working hard, I don't really have much motivation.

I should really go to bed, 7am start, gah!

Thank you for reading!